musings of the class idiot
hey guys. i think alice, kenneth and xun will know why i suddenly went beserk on friday. but yeaah. it's understandable that since most of the class want to study medicine, they would be naturally focused. which is good in a way. i'm this loser drifter. haha. i'm actually considering teaching, occupational therapy, or even flying! heck. but i guess that's just me. i'm a dreamer in a way. idealistic and somewhat naive i'm told. but i will learn in time i suppose. i suppose what i crave is that light-heartedness. that moment's pause in life where you don't constantly look towards the future. the aims, the goals. yes being aimless is just as bad. but taking a day at a time? enjoying life as it is? simple pleasures we might often take for granted? spontaneous eruptions of happiness? but as i have learnt this is no child's world. no one is as carefree as they would like to be. but what if. what if you know? to see the world through the eyes of a child? no politics. just simple, altrustic living. i am my own person. and in that sense i am responsible for my own happiness. haha no i'm not as cynical as sebby. i'm not as bored as michelle. but heck i'm eddie the class lunatic yes? i found it so frustrating that people would enter a school for grades. just to move forward in life. progress progress. resumes. scholarships. hmm. xun is confident he will remain his own person. unaffected by his surroundings, able to remain in control. i lack his confidence but it's comforting to know there are optimists around. =) no sua this is not 'one of those posts' where people post depressing posts on their personal blogs. these are merely musings of the class idiot. heh. hello hwa chong!
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I don't want to be a doctor;I want to be a teacher, so there's no point in wasting 6 years to study medicine. But I strongly believe that a school would, to some degree, affect oneself. As my father's sister's son-in-law's friend said, people from different schools do behave in different ways. Hence, it is important that you choose a school that is suited for you. Not everyone is suited for HC's system, which is something like RV's system. I have classmates who are demoralised by RV's tests and they give up; they don't bother to try again. They are no less smarter than me but it is just that they don't suit RV. Well, the moral of the story is: choose a place that suits your personality. After all, it's our life's choices that made us who we are.
10:45 PM
the balance between work and play continues to be a difficult issue for all of us...yes, sometimes you do get so demoralised and tired of all the goal-getting that you just wanna give it up and slack away...however, i believe you can work and enjoy life at the same time, it's just a matter of finding the certain things that you are passionate in...continue dreaming dear...dreams motivate us and i stay by my advise: CHOOSE A COLLEGE TO GO SUCH THAT YOU WOULD NEVER REGRET IT LATER ON...i hope all of us will find happiness, wherever we may end up ^^; cheers!
10:58 PM
hey eddie
no ur not berserk or naive or anything..i think u put across something tt i've been trying to a lot of times. in tons of blog entries or other stuff but just can't seem to find the words. haha way to go! :P
lol yea if only we cld all walk around the street and really shout and sing songs or do stupid stuff like tt all the time. was one of my best memories from a certain convention. the 'spontaenous eruptions of happiness' as u said. im sure it was a lot of fun in mg..but when its a new start like this i guess it starts off quite bad when u find u miss tt feeling and feel very restricted. particularly if signs point at a stressful life of chasing after cohort standards than living by your own aims (which doesnt necessarily mean slack btw). its quite worrying - like for me after orientation, dramafeste, talentime fade out in come the pre-u sem, council elections and stuff..quite symbolic? the fun things go and the pia ones come in. worrying tt maybe eventually everyone'll lose that sense of fun but get so caught up with your own academic/cca stuff that bonds in jc life become a by-the-way side dish thing than the most impt part of growing here.
but i guess when it comes to this new start and all the uncertainties, it all just comes down to yourself and whether u want to completely let loose and bring out 'that child in you' so that many others can bring theirs out too. its really nice to be able to bump into a same clique again and rahrah around the place but sooner or later it'll have to go..so just continue looking forward (in both senses) and keep the sparkle alive (like by making random noises when ur bored in the lecture). i like tt energy u got and i think its really kept the class high quite a number of times. so do continue! and dun feel restrained. am feeling extremely lucky in coming to this class cos everyone has that energy and spontaenity..im not a confident person really. but the class has helped kickstart it. so if ur willing to give it a chance do stay and remain lighthearted..may everyone in the class support each other with tt energy too. well probably the hardest part is remaining light hearted. but the thing is why feel heavy-hearted at all at this point of time? got trouble? got kick. harhar.
but yea just to share smth i thought was interesting from felyna. i dun think many of us aspire to be doctors..if not we'd all be jamming triple science now. for me im taking this combi because i have no clue what i want to be in the future. and i don't want to take physics. (cuts out every job career except engineering but that's fine with me!). and when i talked to felyna she said many 70 pple were like that too. pple who want to be exposed and remain open minded/open-optioned and learn rather than mug for the 4As in science to enter science streams. im not sure how true that is (for me it is) so maybe we cld all share why we took this combi in the first place. dun dare to make quick assumptions here :P
but yea anyway. do lighten up. looking forward to having a fun time with u for the next 2 years. and pls guys as the terms come rem there's still the class around. :D
'xun is confident he will remain his own person. unaffected by his surroundings, able to remain in control.' my god this is like sooo off. :P
cheers!
12:57 AM
Wow. What everyone else said is sounds so cheem! Haha.
Well, anyway, for me that's pretty much the same reasons too. If I chose what I knew I was good in, I would have ended up in s3 taking FMath and Physics! LOL. But I didn't want to be an engineer either, and I chose to take Bio, instead of Physics -- it is a challenge! And I don't regret it at all. I think having a BCME/BCML combi is the best because it opens up options for both science AND arts? Yea, which is basically what everyone else said too.
I am directionless too! I don't know what I want, but at least I know what I don't want (ie arts or engineering). But I'm keeping my options open, first -- I think that's what everyone is doing, right? Yea :D
Don't worry, eddie. We're all in the same boat.
1:56 PM
haha... yay!! is this the anti-physics class or sth? heez... i also dun wanna be engineering so i didnt take physics.... i guess this is wat they call negative cohesion... oh gosh.. too much history.. haha... anyway... dun think too much abt it coz life still goes on.. :D and... boy band... go go go!!!
11:41 PM
hey guys. didn't expect so much response but i really do appreciate everything that's been said. i figured since i'm staying i might as well make the best of it. no regrets. and yeah life is what i want to make it. so yes there will be times when i have no idea what lecture's about and have homework due from a month before. but right now i'm going to focus on the great thing i can go in hc. thanks guys!
4:09 PM
way to go, eddie! everything is a lil simpler when you're optimistic, don't you think? :p don't forget, you have many people behind you, supporting you always (including US!) no matter what you choose to do...have fun and enjoy a spanking good time here!
8:27 PM
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